T-Plus 3 day… feels like a lifetime

WOW.. what a four days for us and our family. Just a whirling pool of stress and anxiety and RAIN.. Oh yes RAIN GOD AWFUL RAIN.

I would like to start by saying thank the good lord my wife finally got here… She was supposed to be here for the drop off at the surgeon Friday morning.. Unfortunately American Airlines had different ideas.. Her flight was delayed and delayed and delayed and eventually cancelled for Thursday. I did not want to drop off Bonz at the Dr alone. She told me to be strong. I did not want to be the strong one. I wanted her there for her to be that job. I wanted to cry. I wanted Bonz to know it was the hardest decisions I ever made in my life. I didn’t want to hold it together and drop him off and tell the girl at the front desk “OK great thanks. I will talk to you later” And leave him there like laundry at the cleaners. I did though. I did OK. I managed to make it to the car before crying my head off… Later I tried to call the Dr.. He said he would do X-rays before surgery to see if he saw any spreading of the cancer. If he did there would be no surgery we had decided. I think the call was more of a last ditch attempt by me to take it out of my hands. To make me not have to make the decision to take his leg. To have the Dr say “well no it has spread. I am sorry. Surgery is  a bad idea. When I called though to remind about the X-rays the nurse said they had done X-rays. They proceeded with surgery  and removed the leg and the Dr would be calling me shortly.

I was on my way to the airport when the Dr called. My wife had gotten a flight coming in Friday. The Dr said the surgery went very well. I was still very nervous. Bonzai would stay the night there. I understood but hated it. He would be scared, but I knew he would be too much for us to handle at home even if awake. My wife’s flight got delayed in Dallas on a layover. Then delayed again. Then again.. UGH here he go again. We eventually had to get her switched to a different airport. So Friday was spent all day sitting in my car trying to figure out WHERE she would land and when. I guess in a way it was better. I was stressed over the flight and Bonz , though present in my mind, Was on the backburner while I tried to get my wife home

Saturday morning we went to get Bonz. He had not seen mommy in a month because of her being out of town caring for grandma. Oh boy he was happy. His tail went nuts.. They said we could open the kennel and he pulled himself out by crawling before we could even stop him. They said he could stay till Monday but they did not have overnight people stay and that worried us. So we brought him home. I will save that post for the next one though.